I am coming to find it is one of those things you can often see with some time and distance, but in the moment is difficult to pick apart the details from the important parts.
I have made some poor choices on who I love in the past, but I do not think Karlach was a mistake. So at least there is that.
Emotions are strong for a reason, and it's not such an easy thing to control. I don't think it's wrong to love anyone. It's only how you choose to express it.
I don't think either of your companions from your home are poor choices even if Mr. Astarion has a sharper tongue than most.
Astarion too. Like a cat that one. Sharp fangs and sharp claws, but once you've earned his trust, as loyal a companion as any even if mildly prone to hissing. But no, I don't think any of my mistakes are of my current friends - here or otherwise.
And you are right. It's not wrong to choose to love, but it in the action. My actions have hurt those I loved deeply in the past, and I suppose-- my fear is doing so again.
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I appreciate that honesty. I want to say it's worth it every time for me, but even I have my moments.
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I have made some poor choices on who I love in the past, but I do not think Karlach was a mistake. So at least there is that.
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I don't think either of your companions from your home are poor choices even if Mr. Astarion has a sharper tongue than most.
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And you are right. It's not wrong to choose to love, but it in the action. My actions have hurt those I loved deeply in the past, and I suppose-- my fear is doing so again.
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[ it's nice to hear people talk about the people they love. ]
If it is what she wished for, you did what you could. It's not a fear that can easily be assuaged, but I can see you trying.