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Would you remember you were supposed to be mad about a memory altering head injury if you had a memory altering head injury?
[ patting astarion on the cheek now. ]
Perhaps we should stop theorizing about my traumatic head injury and simply assuming my head will be fine.
Perhaps we should stop theorizing about my traumatic head injury and simply assuming my head will be fine.
It may or may not be, given how things seem to pan out here.
[ pat pat pat.
stop patting each other. ]
[ pat pat pat.
stop patting each other. ]
I believe we can consider such things an all-or-nothing scenario.
[ you dont really get brain injured. you just die, sweetie. ]
[ you dont really get brain injured. you just die, sweetie. ]
Yes, well. Weāre all stuck in that sort of situation I suppose.
[ every weekās a roulette. donāt get taken out by head injury in the land of murder, that would just be embarrassing. ]
ā¦
This has been enlightening and depressing. Iām changing the subject. [ and heās immediately rooting around in the clothing stands again. ]
ā¦ Quick question ā is it all robes with you, or have your considered regular trousers?
[ every weekās a roulette. donāt get taken out by head injury in the land of murder, that would just be embarrassing. ]
ā¦
This has been enlightening and depressing. Iām changing the subject. [ and heās immediately rooting around in the clothing stands again. ]
ā¦ Quick question ā is it all robes with you, or have your considered regular trousers?
[ what good conversation isn't both enlightening and depressing.
he'll sort of follow him around and look over his shoulder at what he's rifling through, raising an eyebrow and peeking down at his robe. ]
Well, as a matter of fact I'm wearing trousers under the robe at this very moment. [ its like a plain pair of brown trousers and a white wrap shirt under the overrobe sorta deal ] So I don't have any objections. There are colleagues that will, ah ... keep it loose, as one might say, but I've found that feeling a bit vulnerable.
I'm not overly attached to only robes, if that's what you're asking. It's simply traditional.
he'll sort of follow him around and look over his shoulder at what he's rifling through, raising an eyebrow and peeking down at his robe. ]
Well, as a matter of fact I'm wearing trousers under the robe at this very moment. [ its like a plain pair of brown trousers and a white wrap shirt under the overrobe sorta deal ] So I don't have any objections. There are colleagues that will, ah ... keep it loose, as one might say, but I've found that feeling a bit vulnerable.
I'm not overly attached to only robes, if that's what you're asking. It's simply traditional.
[ huh. ]
Hm.
I didnāt think Iād be learning today that half of you are free-balling under those things. [ stop ] But I did mean without the robe. Thereās a whole store here, might as well bring back enough clothes for the rest of however long theyāre insisting weāre stuck here for.
[
flings a pair of pants at him as well. ]
Hm.
I didnāt think Iād be learning today that half of you are free-balling under those things. [ stop ] But I did mean without the robe. Thereās a whole store here, might as well bring back enough clothes for the rest of however long theyāre insisting weāre stuck here for.
[
flings a pair of pants at him as well. ]
[ rng says the beach, which i'm sure is lovely after a dog was raptured here.
astarion has taken a seat on the sand, and seems to have a pair of shades from the store on. it looks like he's squinting out at the water. ]
The downside to efficiency is we lost our chance to ask Nona what actually happened to the dog, I'm realising.
astarion has taken a seat on the sand, and seems to have a pair of shades from the store on. it looks like he's squinting out at the water. ]
The downside to efficiency is we lost our chance to ask Nona what actually happened to the dog, I'm realising.
[ yeah the beach!!!!! gale is using his notebook to shield his eyes, but is realizing he should have probably gotten sunglasses too. he could have simply summoned shade. having no magic is the worst.
at least astarion seems to be taking advantage of the sun. ]
That is true. Though is it terrible part of me simply doesn't want to know?
at least astarion seems to be taking advantage of the sun. ]
That is true. Though is it terrible part of me simply doesn't want to know?
[ ... just watches him shielding his face with his notebook like 'honestly, embarrassing'. ]
...
No, not really. I don't think knowing if the dog was thrown to sea or something messier is really going to improve our weekend in any way.
[ .....
takes off his sunglasses and holds them out to him after a moment of thinking about it. ]
...
No, not really. I don't think knowing if the dog was thrown to sea or something messier is really going to improve our weekend in any way.
[ .....
takes off his sunglasses and holds them out to him after a moment of thinking about it. ]
Pestilence mentioned having to search for the body, I believe. Oh, ah--
[ he hesitates, but then taking them and putting them on? he looks very fucking 80s like this. ]
Thank you? ... Don't you need them more? You're really much more pale than me.
[ he hesitates, but then taking them and putting them on? he looks very fucking 80s like this. ]
Thank you? ... Don't you need them more? You're really much more pale than me.
[ he has already sprawled out with his eyes closed. nature's sunglasses. ]
Yes, I remember them saying something about that. Not exactly a comfort if someone was especially worried about what happened to him.
[ hmm. ]
They were mostly for fashion.
Yes, I remember them saying something about that. Not exactly a comfort if someone was especially worried about what happened to him.
[ hmm. ]
They were mostly for fashion.
[ buries him in sand buries him in sand buries him in sand ]
Are you especially worried about what happened to him, Astarion ... ?
[ not to make light of it, but it's kind of sweet if he is. astarion? your dog feelings? ]
Are you especially worried about what happened to him, Astarion ... ?
[ not to make light of it, but it's kind of sweet if he is. astarion? your dog feelings? ]
[ thank you. he is dead now. ]
The dog was one of the smarter people here, Gale.
[ LOOK HE APPRECIATED THE DOG, OK. ]
The dog was one of the smarter people here, Gale.
[ LOOK HE APPRECIATED THE DOG, OK. ]
[ gale is not aware he had a whole wizard conversation with human pickles. he will never know. reaching over to pat him assuringly on the chest. ]
Yes, yes, I know Astarion, I know. I'm very sorry to see his loss as well.
Yes, yes, I know Astarion, I know. I'm very sorry to see his loss as well.
[ he doesnāt even know the love of his life is deadā¦.. this is so tragic ]
ā Technically we didnāt see anything. [ stop ]
What do you make of the new rule, by the way? As the sole one of us planning to seek their partner.
ā Technically we didnāt see anything. [ stop ]
What do you make of the new rule, by the way? As the sole one of us planning to seek their partner.
[ he looks a little surprised. ]
You've abandoned the idea yourself?
You've abandoned the idea yourself?
I thought we talked about this early on. The power is tempting, but tying my life to someone elseās is not.
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Yes, I remember. I thought you were still weighing the options, however. The chance for a reversal of your condition.
[ but. ]
I agree, however, that I don't think it is necessary in your case. We can likely find another solution outside of here.
[ but. ]
I agree, however, that I don't think it is necessary in your case. We can likely find another solution outside of here.
Iām interested in knowing who it is, but not them knowing.
[ ā¦ ]
And yes. my vampirism isnāt quite along the lines of āexploding orbā or āinferno heart.ā But Iād be bloody furious if I got a wish, cured it and then died that weekend because someone unrelated to me couldnāt keep themselves alive.
[ ā¦ ]
And yes. my vampirism isnāt quite along the lines of āexploding orbā or āinferno heart.ā But Iād be bloody furious if I got a wish, cured it and then died that weekend because someone unrelated to me couldnāt keep themselves alive.
Fair enough.
[ he will lay back at this point too, crossing his hands over his chest and toying with his fingers. ]
I ... just do not think I have a choice. If I choose not to do it, I will die. If I choose to do it, I may die. But inaction will be the end of me.
[ he will lay back at this point too, crossing his hands over his chest and toying with his fingers. ]
I ... just do not think I have a choice. If I choose not to do it, I will die. If I choose to do it, I may die. But inaction will be the end of me.
[ hmmm. ]
I am not dissuading you. Only curious. [ when he puts it that way, heās not wrong. ]
ā¦ Although I do wonder why you went ahead with using that orb in the first place. From my perspective you werenāt exactly eager to be talked down, but you did listen.
I am not dissuading you. Only curious. [ when he puts it that way, heās not wrong. ]
ā¦ Although I do wonder why you went ahead with using that orb in the first place. From my perspective you werenāt exactly eager to be talked down, but you did listen.
[ a really long pause, like he's not entirely sure how to answer the question at first. ]
I think ... I had spent time fostering this growing resentment for Mystra within me. As dark and powerful as the orb itself. I was beginning to explore options beyond her reach, her domain. I was gaining illithid psionics, and toying with the Shadow Weave, and it was working. You know I could-- I'd greatly deepened my well of magic by proper application of the Shadow Weave. Shar's Weave. Imagine what I could do if I had more than a few scant days to work on that. I was beginning to walk a path towards something I had already seen the end of. The path Karsus walked as well.
I thought about how after everything, she sent Elminster to deliver her missive. After my father passed, he was - ... Well he has known me since I was quite young. But even he has no ability to deny Mystra beyond a few disguised words.
I think I simply felt very alone. And terrified. And in that moment, I snapped back the other direction, like a bow string being pulled taunt. I made a decision that I already regretted even before it began. I agree it was a mistake, and I would take it back.
I think ... I had spent time fostering this growing resentment for Mystra within me. As dark and powerful as the orb itself. I was beginning to explore options beyond her reach, her domain. I was gaining illithid psionics, and toying with the Shadow Weave, and it was working. You know I could-- I'd greatly deepened my well of magic by proper application of the Shadow Weave. Shar's Weave. Imagine what I could do if I had more than a few scant days to work on that. I was beginning to walk a path towards something I had already seen the end of. The path Karsus walked as well.
I thought about how after everything, she sent Elminster to deliver her missive. After my father passed, he was - ... Well he has known me since I was quite young. But even he has no ability to deny Mystra beyond a few disguised words.
I think I simply felt very alone. And terrified. And in that moment, I snapped back the other direction, like a bow string being pulled taunt. I made a decision that I already regretted even before it began. I agree it was a mistake, and I would take it back.
[ not appearing in this tag: me putting my head on the table and going āNOOOOO šā ]
ā¦
[ oh and doesnāt that hit a little too close to the belt. āI simply felt very alone. And terrified.ā while gale talks, he remains silent, his eyes still closed as he listens. and when gale is finished, he opens them, squinting slightly in the light. ]
I have found, over the years, that as benevolent or kind as some of them seem, the gods will do very little to help you when you actually need it. Not when they could be doing something for themselves instead. [ when youāre desperate, and scared and alone, and no one answers. ] It was never the gods that did anything for me. It was only myself. For so long.
ā¦
And so, you want to use this wish to undo what happened. To take it back, as you said? But despite everythingā [ he reaches out a hand and taps his finger once on the centre of galeās chest. ] The orb is still here.
ā¦
[ oh and doesnāt that hit a little too close to the belt. āI simply felt very alone. And terrified.ā while gale talks, he remains silent, his eyes still closed as he listens. and when gale is finished, he opens them, squinting slightly in the light. ]
I have found, over the years, that as benevolent or kind as some of them seem, the gods will do very little to help you when you actually need it. Not when they could be doing something for themselves instead. [ when youāre desperate, and scared and alone, and no one answers. ] It was never the gods that did anything for me. It was only myself. For so long.
ā¦
And so, you want to use this wish to undo what happened. To take it back, as you said? But despite everythingā [ he reaches out a hand and taps his finger once on the centre of galeās chest. ] The orb is still here.
I don't think you are wrong.
[ he has a lot of thoughts lately on the divine versus mortality, but the point being made is true. the gods are not inclined to help, or at least, don't see their lives as significant enough to intervene in often. his isolation had not been nearly as long as Astarion's, either, and it had felt like torture for even that year.
he looks down with the tap on his chest, giving a bit of a wan smile, breathing out a long sigh as if he's been holding his breath. ]
Yes. And likely will be even if I manage to reverse that decision. I am a man with quite a few problems, and solving all of them is going to take some doing.
[ he has a lot of thoughts lately on the divine versus mortality, but the point being made is true. the gods are not inclined to help, or at least, don't see their lives as significant enough to intervene in often. his isolation had not been nearly as long as Astarion's, either, and it had felt like torture for even that year.
he looks down with the tap on his chest, giving a bit of a wan smile, breathing out a long sigh as if he's been holding his breath. ]
Yes. And likely will be even if I manage to reverse that decision. I am a man with quite a few problems, and solving all of them is going to take some doing.
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