[ he tilts his head like he's thinking about it. ]
I will... be honest, Gale.
I'm annoyed at myself -- the other myself -- for not noticing how far you were spiralling. My head might've been up my own arse for most of our journey, and continues to be so, but even I was able to see you were struggling with what Elminster told you.
[ it's a little hesitant, like peeling back pieces of himself he doesn't want to peel back but --- well. gale is out here having all his vulnerabilities thrown all over the place simply because of the nature of this place. ]
I would suggest focusing on surviving. We'll see what we can find out about other options and ways to get yourself what you want.
[ this is like the sweetest thing astarion has ever said and it makes him very emotional? thanks? wiping at his face a little bit, but trying to play it cool so he does not make astarion run the opposite direction very fast. ]
I-- Thank you. And I think I owe you an acknowledgment myself. That I knew your requests for aide, for helping you with Cazador and I promised I would help you in whatever what I could. I feel that by ... giving up at the moment of pressure, I somewhat abandoned you. And that was wrong of me.
I think you are correct. We will have options. We will make ourselves options, if necessary.
[ honestly there's a lot of relief in admitting all of that and then having the outcome be ... good? insane how talking about your feelings works. that's fucked up and wrong. ]
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[ it feels like a boundary that maybe he shouldn't have poked at. ]
If we survive long enough for it to be a concern, then maybe other solutions will have arisen. Patience might be key.
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I will... be honest, Gale.
I'm annoyed at myself -- the other myself -- for not noticing how far you were spiralling. My head might've been up my own arse for most of our journey, and continues to be so, but even I was able to see you were struggling with what Elminster told you.
[ it's a little hesitant, like peeling back pieces of himself he doesn't want to peel back but --- well. gale is out here having all his vulnerabilities thrown all over the place simply because of the nature of this place. ]
I would suggest focusing on surviving. We'll see what we can find out about other options and ways to get yourself what you want.
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I-- Thank you. And I think I owe you an acknowledgment myself. That I knew your requests for aide, for helping you with Cazador and I promised I would help you in whatever what I could. I feel that by ... giving up at the moment of pressure, I somewhat abandoned you. And that was wrong of me.
I think you are correct. We will have options. We will make ourselves options, if necessary.
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... I think, essentially, we're on the same page. We both let each other down one way or another in your world.
[ so. perhaps now is the chance to not do that. a rather simple thought, but it's a soothing one regardless. ]
I will find out what I can from Vin, if she's willing to tell me. Otherwise, you can always ask her yourself. She's quite amiable.
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[ honestly there's a lot of relief in admitting all of that and then having the outcome be ... good? insane how talking about your feelings works. that's fucked up and wrong. ]
I know, I know.
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At this point, it would be strange without all the yapping. Probably better to keep you around.
[ it's probably clear he is doing the Cat Thing. ]
It would nice if that were a way to access it as well. A little less risky than potentially getting caught for a murder and executed.