So long as it does not end with me implanting another terrible cursed magical object within me, then I think I am doing better than my previous attempts!
[ he feels like astarion is more likely to forgive him before he gets to the insane wizard portion of this apology however. ]
[ taking one of astarion's hands again and putting it on his chest, right over where the mark used to be. there's still an outline there, like a faded scar, but none of the bruising or odd magical thrumming. ]
My greatest aspiration now is to see to your happiness. And also I suppose leaving this place alive. But that's a distant second.
[ he nEEDS TO STOP DOING THIS ASTARION HAS A HEART THAT CAN HAVE A HEARTATTACK NOW. aaaaaa. he absently traces the outline of the mark as much as his fingers can with gale still gripping his hand. ]
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I think the latter is rather important to the former, if you want to be picky. Can't really seek out the meaning of happiness if we're both permanently gone, can we?
[ he laughs at that, because yeah that does feel like a Complete Astarion Plan. No further steps required! he also is so out of practice with this sort of thing he goes definitely red and sort of flustered at being kissed on the neck. ]
Probably will take a bit of doing in the time from now to then, but between you and me I am very done with thinking about how to beat this cult for the moment. At least for tonight at any rate. I did die earlier, and I think I'm owed at least an evening off.
[ yea!! it's a perfect plan! nothing can go wrong. and get used to it. ]
I think that's allowed. Just for once. Dying really takes it out of you. [ even if all you did was unravel your very existence in front of everyone you know and love. wow. ]
Hah, I won't exactly miss that place. It's been a while since I was able to stay in a room by myself, actually, now that I think about it. Not since leaving my tower.
I do think it’s worth getting access to yours, for the convenience of having your own space alone. [ heh ] But I have no issues with you not using it if you’re choosing to share my bed instead.
[ wow! they are managing talking about it. good job. ]
If you are comfortable with that, I have no objections to that. Less than no objections. The opposite of objections. [ stop saying objections. ] Complete concurrence.
Stop saying objections. [ and yet they are still useless. ] I am fine with it. Being forced apart for a while certainly gives one time to consider what they’re comfortable with — and what they’re missing. [ which, as it turns out, includes all the physical contact. ]
I admit I'm very curious and quite excited what this room is going to turn out like for me. I doubt it will have the views of my tower, but hopefully at least some interesting reading.
[just assuming it's going to have books in it.
anyway he gets stuck on these things because it seems very important that astarion set the pace he's okay with - he can decide when he wants to say what he wants to say, and where and exactly how far he wants gale - and gale isn't going to press at any boundary at all that isn't open to him. the whole point of choosing to live is that it opens up a great deal of time to make any decision on any timeline he wants. ]
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[ yeah they can just be all sappy and cozy until astarion gets hives or something. ]
This isn’t a bad start.
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[ he feels like astarion is more likely to forgive him before he gets to the insane wizard portion of this apology however. ]
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This reminds me.
[ pinches his side. ]
Stop fucking with the Karsus texts.
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[ it would be a WASTE otherwise, but he's not trying to ascend to godhood anymore. ]
They're interesting. Besides, you keep reading that terrible cursed necromancy book.
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It'd better stay purely academic. No sudden changes of mind and aspirations to do something with it, even if it's not ascending to godhood.
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[ taking one of astarion's hands again and putting it on his chest, right over where the mark used to be. there's still an outline there, like a faded scar, but none of the bruising or odd magical thrumming. ]
My greatest aspiration now is to see to your happiness. And also I suppose leaving this place alive. But that's a distant second.
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I think the latter is rather important to the former, if you want to be picky. Can't really seek out the meaning of happiness if we're both permanently gone, can we?
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[ i mean. it does sort of make the goal aligned anyway. ]
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[ don't die. be happy. smooches his neck. ]
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Probably will take a bit of doing in the time from now to then, but between you and me I am very done with thinking about how to beat this cult for the moment. At least for tonight at any rate. I did die earlier, and I think I'm owed at least an evening off.
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I think that's allowed. Just for once. Dying really takes it out of you. [ even if all you did was unravel your very existence in front of everyone you know and love. wow. ]
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well he doesn't want to think about plot or dying or cults any more at all for the moment, so. ]
So, you've already had a room made for you here?
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Yes. Everyone gets one -- it's a little haunted for lack of a better word, but after the bloody mortuary it's hardly an issue.
It's yours, and it has a bed. A vast improvement indeed.
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Hah, I won't exactly miss that place. It's been a while since I was able to stay in a room by myself, actually, now that I think about it. Not since leaving my tower.
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[ hmmm. ]
We did spend a truly disgustingly long amount of time on the road camping, didn't we?
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Quite a long time. And apparently are heading back to do more.
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Ugggh.
We have the experience though, minus these few weeks of having a bed.
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[ HINTING. ]
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I do think it’s worth getting access to yours, for the convenience of having your own space alone. [ heh ] But I have no issues with you not using it if you’re choosing to share my bed instead.
[ wow look at him go ]
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If you are comfortable with that, I have no objections to that. Less than no objections. The opposite of objections. [ stop saying objections. ] Complete concurrence.
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Stop saying objections. [ and yet they are still useless. ] I am fine with it. Being forced apart for a while certainly gives one time to consider what they’re comfortable with — and what they’re missing. [ which, as it turns out, includes all the physical contact. ]
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[just assuming it's going to have books in it.
anyway he gets stuck on these things because it seems very important that astarion set the pace he's okay with - he can decide when he wants to say what he wants to say, and where and exactly how far he wants gale - and gale isn't going to press at any boundary at all that isn't open to him. the whole point of choosing to live is that it opens up a great deal of time to make any decision on any timeline he wants. ]
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[ if it doesn't have books it will have failed as a room.
can he literally hear his brain whirring? ]
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Would you care to come while I sort it out?
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[ he also takes the chance to shamelessly nip at his ear. ]
And then you can decide which room you'd prefer we stay in.
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