[ after all the drama of the execution and after karlach has gotten settled somewhere or has gone to talk to someone else he'll go find himself a relatively quiet spot to sit and write furiously in his little journal.
I don't know, exactly. General thoughts on the concept, I suppose? But alright. What side would you want to be? Given that I'm not entirely certain we will have a choice.
He tried to roll me into the pyre as soon I woke up here and filled my blanket with leeches the first night in the theater, so. No.
[ the funniest thing is that it was only his blanket because i rolled the lowest but that shitty roll set the tone for so much of his experience here ]
The way he died was way too messed up, but I'm thankful every day that I don't have to worry about him finding some new way to make my life hell.
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Sorry about what I said to you at the camp that time, by the way. I was just drunk and had a really big chip on my shoulder thanks to this crap, on top of the other stuff that happened that day.
Fair enough. [ HE WON'T ARGUE. KARMA IS A LOT. ] I hear he has made vast improvements in his time with the others, though of course one blanket leeching is probably enough for a lifetime of avoidance.
[ gale looks a little surprised at the apology, but, you know. grateful. ]
Consider it forgotten, then. And really I am quite sorry about the couch, do understand none of it was intended. And I don't know how the leech jar ended up in there.
I wouldn't. Feel strange, that is. I imagine there will be work to do, and if I cannot see the end of this damned ritual myself, then I would prefer that work be done by someone who would like to be doing it.
[ he. might have really wanted to summon that god. ]
Of course, it is better to face one's fate head on. Survival is all well and good, but there are only so many costs I can pay.
Well, it's more the rest of the list that I'm unsure about, to be honest. [ not in terms of ability, it just feels weird that they didn't vote for more people who said they were willing to live!!! ] But... yeah. That makes sense.
[ though wanting to do work is something he hasn't been accused of too many times.
watches this sad cleanup... ]
I guess it's good that you at least have a little time to be able to prepare for things this way.
...It's actually kind of crazy that we managed to go this long without ending up in a situation like this.
Oh... yeah, I assume it's got to feel terrible, having that looming inevitability hanging over you.
But being able to get everything in order and make sure you've shared everything you want to counts for something, right? Like, I think it was good that we had a chance to get that astronomy information from you, even if we aren't sure what to do with it yet.
[ his demeanor calm and practiced, but despite all that, his hands are shaking somewhat. ]
That said, I don't know about everything. Isn't there always more one wishes to do? Finish a spell, talk more with a friend, tell my mother what has happened to me. It is the strange feeling of running out of time, all over again. From weeks to minutes in the blink of an eye.
[ ah... he frowns. he really doesn't understand most of that, at least not on a personal level. he's spent practically his whole adult life just killing time because he has nothing meaningful to fill it with. wasting opportunities is all he's ever really done.
still, something in his chest tightens at this. maybe it's the sight of that shaking that betrays the steadiness gale's been projecting this whole time; maybe it's the way he sees his own mother's face in his head when gale mentions his own, and remembers the empty feeling that comes with waiting for your missing family to come home.
maybe it's the fact that it's actually a little fucked up that someone like him is going to be one of the last ones standing.
he takes a breath, exhales, and nods. ]
...Yeah. I'll do my best with it.
If this goes the way we want it to, you'll get more time for all of those things. I don't want to be the reason that doesn't happen for anyone.
[ that's really all he wanted to see, some sort of resolution. it soothes a lot of the fear he'd had. ]
For what it is worth, I do not see a world in which that is the case. You have a great deal of stubbornness within you, but that's not a bad thing. My own professors at Blackstaff often leveled some criticism at myself for the same vice - `abject and incorrigible self-delusion` in one particularly biting review - but I think the other side of that coin is an unyielding resolve that I imagine will carry you through.
You have a great many friends that rely upon you and trust in your heart. I can see why.
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W0 - SUNDAY
he'll look up as he hears someone else though. ]
Oh. Hello. Quite the exciting afternoon, hm?
[ thats one way to put it. ]
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[ sighs. ]
How's she doing?
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She will be alright. A few fingers are nothing a cleric cannot fix, and as for the rest-- well. Time will have to serve.
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[ do we... have a cleric? ]
Well... that's good. Messed up that they gave them such a crazy weapon imbalance when he was the one that was supposed to be dying, though.
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[ but yeah. ]
I suppose it's as they said, correct? Blood must be split. Who's it is matters less than that simple fact.
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[ which is a bit ominous of itself. ]
Though based on the ... possession of Mr. Boothill, it would be best that we do catch the correct person. He was not in his right mind.
W6 - TUESDAY
So what do you think of all of this? The living and the dying and such?
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What are you asking, which side I want to be on when it gets to the final less-than-six?
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[ the funniest thing is that it was only his blanket because i rolled the lowest but that shitty roll set the tone for so much of his experience here ]
The way he died was way too messed up, but I'm thankful every day that I don't have to worry about him finding some new way to make my life hell.
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Sorry about what I said to you at the camp that time, by the way. I was just drunk and had a really big chip on my shoulder thanks to this crap, on top of the other stuff that happened that day.
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[ gale looks a little surprised at the apology, but, you know. grateful. ]
Consider it forgotten, then. And really I am quite sorry about the couch, do understand none of it was intended. And I don't know how the leech jar ended up in there.
W6 - SATURDAY
... Ah. Todomatsu. I'm actually quite glad you spoke up about your desire to live - I think it was quite helpful.
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Haha... I guess. I feel a little weird about the final list, though.
[ like damn why was he one of the only ones whose wishes were so thoroughly respected ]
...Thanks for how you handled everything today. Laudna let it slip to me last night that you were her partner, so.
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[ he. might have really wanted to summon that god. ]
Of course, it is better to face one's fate head on. Survival is all well and good, but there are only so many costs I can pay.
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[ though wanting to do work is something he hasn't been accused of too many times.
watches this sad cleanup... ]
I guess it's good that you at least have a little time to be able to prepare for things this way.
...It's actually kind of crazy that we managed to go this long without ending up in a situation like this.
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Oh, the waiting is by far the worst part, to be quite honest with you. This is not the first time I've been in a position such as this.
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But being able to get everything in order and make sure you've shared everything you want to counts for something, right? Like, I think it was good that we had a chance to get that astronomy information from you, even if we aren't sure what to do with it yet.
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[ his demeanor calm and practiced, but despite all that, his hands are shaking somewhat. ]
That said, I don't know about everything. Isn't there always more one wishes to do? Finish a spell, talk more with a friend, tell my mother what has happened to me. It is the strange feeling of running out of time, all over again. From weeks to minutes in the blink of an eye.
Don't waste this opportunity you are being given.
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still, something in his chest tightens at this. maybe it's the sight of that shaking that betrays the steadiness gale's been projecting this whole time; maybe it's the way he sees his own mother's face in his head when gale mentions his own, and remembers the empty feeling that comes with waiting for your missing family to come home.
maybe it's the fact that it's actually a little fucked up that someone like him is going to be one of the last ones standing.
he takes a breath, exhales, and nods. ]
...Yeah. I'll do my best with it.
If this goes the way we want it to, you'll get more time for all of those things. I don't want to be the reason that doesn't happen for anyone.
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[ that's really all he wanted to see, some sort of resolution. it soothes a lot of the fear he'd had. ]
For what it is worth, I do not see a world in which that is the case. You have a great deal of stubbornness within you, but that's not a bad thing. My own professors at Blackstaff often leveled some criticism at myself for the same vice - `abject and incorrigible self-delusion` in one particularly biting review - but I think the other side of that coin is an unyielding resolve that I imagine will carry you through.
You have a great many friends that rely upon you and trust in your heart. I can see why.