[ it's fucking awful. everything is fucking awful and torn to shreds and every day seems worse than the last.
he doesn't want to be a burden, to stretch these people any further. he is worried they will break, and it will be his fault - again. but it seems worth something that here, at the end of everything, they are all together. he didn't have that before, when he'd first gotten the orb. no one was there at all. it feels somehow like he's still managed something. if he is to die, at least it is with these people he loves.
sitting down on her other side to take her other hand in both of his, squeezing. ]
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he doesn't want to be a burden, to stretch these people any further. he is worried they will break, and it will be his fault - again. but it seems worth something that here, at the end of everything, they are all together. he didn't have that before, when he'd first gotten the orb. no one was there at all. it feels somehow like he's still managed something. if he is to die, at least it is with these people he loves.
sitting down on her other side to take her other hand in both of his, squeezing. ]