[ it's fucking awful. everything is fucking awful and torn to shreds and every day seems worse than the last.
he doesn't want to be a burden, to stretch these people any further. he is worried they will break, and it will be his fault - again. but it seems worth something that here, at the end of everything, they are all together. he didn't have that before, when he'd first gotten the orb. no one was there at all. it feels somehow like he's still managed something. if he is to die, at least it is with these people he loves.
sitting down on her other side to take her other hand in both of his, squeezing. ]
[it isn't that she's surprised, so much, that astarion takes her hand - it's a little unexpected, but she doesn't mind. of course she doesn't. she thrives off little touches like this, the way that someone holding onto her makes her feel alive. it's even better when it's those who don't like to touch, don't like to be close. it means they trust her, and that's all she ever wants.
that's all she wants both of them to do. trust her. rely on her. and know that whatever it is, whatever they do, wherever they end up, she's with them.
so when astarion takes her hand, and gale comes in to take the other, she laces her fingers with both of them and keeps them close.]
... Love you both. [she says, quietly, with no expectation that they'll say it back. it just seems important that they know.]
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he doesn't want to be a burden, to stretch these people any further. he is worried they will break, and it will be his fault - again. but it seems worth something that here, at the end of everything, they are all together. he didn't have that before, when he'd first gotten the orb. no one was there at all. it feels somehow like he's still managed something. if he is to die, at least it is with these people he loves.
sitting down on her other side to take her other hand in both of his, squeezing. ]
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that's all she wants both of them to do. trust her. rely on her. and know that whatever it is, whatever they do, wherever they end up, she's with them.
so when astarion takes her hand, and gale comes in to take the other, she laces her fingers with both of them and keeps them close.]
... Love you both. [she says, quietly, with no expectation that they'll say it back. it just seems important that they know.]
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