[... yeah. she gets it, but. she's like visibly struggling here, because it does make sense, but. camille is her friend. and she hates being in this position.]
What if she hurts you? What if she kills you? What have you got to fight her with? [starts with that, even though her baby heart just really does not want to discuss killing someone "innocent" at all.]
She's not going to be able to get at me, what the fuck is she going to do. She can barely reach.
Besides, she's my friend too, Gale, what makes you different?
... Don't. That's my answer. [he doesn't have to listen to her, but she doesn't want this to happen. she's going to let her heart talk instead of her practicality.]
What will we do then, to try and save her? She will not be saved by leaving her be.
[ maybe it's the effect of week, of every one of his worst impulses alight and on fire. little barbs and needles and biting retorts spring to his mouth `can that one person not be me?` but he takes a deep breath and lets it out. true neutral is a strange place to be. choosing to attempt the better path is hard. a cut through reality with an obsidian blade, calling an echo. an ever-folding mirror of endless possibility, of a path not taken. ]
It's not going to be by killing her, that's not - saving, it's --
[mercy. is what it is. it's mercy. she stops, breathing in, and exhaling sharply. she watches him for a second, and then reaches for his hands.]
I know. [she's scared too.] I know, Gale.
[she falters, and then:] If you do, please don't go alone. Take me or fangs with you. I don't want you to, I don't want you to risk yourself, but I can't let you go alone.
[ it's mercy but it's also a trade. her life for his. it's ugly, at the bones of it, and he'd hesitated for days for this reason exactly. but he doesn't know if there is another elegant solution at all.
he will let her have his hands. his nails are chewed all to hell by the way, and they're a bit ink-splattered. ]
I don't intend to act against the both of your direct wishes. If the answer is you do not want it, then I will not do it. The point of this was so that I did not feel duplicitous.
A choice as impossibly bad as between telling you and simply deciding on my own and never breathing a word of it, I expect?
[ he'll just let his hands get squeezed all to hell. ]
I was advised recently that sharing a burden is better than attempting to carry it by myself, and I expect the same applies to all of us. I will not resent a no on this. It seems fairly obvious neither of you agree, and I don't want to make you feel as if you have compromised on something important.
Therapy, in a general sense, refers to the treatment of psychological or emotional problems through structured sessions with a trained therapist or counselor. It is to help you understand your feelings, thoughts, and behaviors better, and to provide them with tools and strategies to cope with difficult situations, manage stress, and improve relationships.
[ i feel like there are therapists in waterdeep they have A LOT OF wizards. and the last time astarion was tapped into the culture was 200 years ago they probably invented it. ]
But it is a load of nonsense of course. They are almost entirely quacks.
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What if she hurts you? What if she kills you? What have you got to fight her with? [starts with that, even though her baby heart just really does not want to discuss killing someone "innocent" at all.]
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But what if she hurts or kills you or Astarion and I did nothing. I waited.
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Besides, she's my friend too, Gale, what makes you different?
... Don't. That's my answer. [he doesn't have to listen to her, but she doesn't want this to happen. she's going to let her heart talk instead of her practicality.]
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[ she is pretty capable. ]
If not me, it is going to be someone else. But I asked for a reason, and it is that I wanted your counsel.
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I just. [...] I want to try to save one person.
[but she knows that's not probably going to be possible. a deep breath.]
We'll find something for you, okay? Promise. It doesn't have to be this.
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[ maybe it's the effect of week, of every one of his worst impulses alight and on fire. little barbs and needles and biting retorts spring to his mouth `can that one person not be me?` but he takes a deep breath and lets it out. true neutral is a strange place to be. choosing to attempt the better path is hard. a cut through reality with an obsidian blade, calling an echo. an ever-folding mirror of endless possibility, of a path not taken. ]
... I am very frightened, Karlach.
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[mercy. is what it is. it's mercy. she stops, breathing in, and exhaling sharply. she watches him for a second, and then reaches for his hands.]
I know. [she's scared too.] I know, Gale.
[she falters, and then:] If you do, please don't go alone. Take me or fangs with you. I don't want you to, I don't want you to risk yourself, but I can't let you go alone.
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he will let her have his hands. his nails are chewed all to hell by the way, and they're a bit ink-splattered. ]
I don't intend to act against the both of your direct wishes. If the answer is you do not want it, then I will not do it. The point of this was so that I did not feel duplicitous.
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Gale, you understand this is a shit thing to ask me, yeah? Make me tell you no, I don't want you to do something that'd save you?
[her tail flicks anxiously. she holds his hands tightly.]
The fucking impossibility of this. Like I'm snatching it out of your hands. Both choices are fucking rubbish.
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[ he'll just let his hands get squeezed all to hell. ]
I was advised recently that sharing a burden is better than attempting to carry it by myself, and I expect the same applies to all of us. I will not resent a no on this. It seems fairly obvious neither of you agree, and I don't want to make you feel as if you have compromised on something important.
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[she says, stubbornly.
silence, for a moment.]
I found another way for you in my Faerun. I'll find one here.
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[ you guys just dont LIKE my COOL MURDER SOLUTIONS. god!!!!!!!!!! ]
... Famine owes me a favor. I imagine some use can be made of that.
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Famine said h - they'd look out for me. So. I'll ask too.
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I think Famine wants to throw me out a window, so I won't bother.
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They did say you need therapy to me, too. Real insistent.
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[ he does. he needs fucking therapy. ]
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[ i feel like there are therapists in waterdeep they have A LOT OF wizards. and the last time astarion was tapped into the culture was 200 years ago they probably invented it. ]
But it is a load of nonsense of course. They are almost entirely quacks.
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no, they don't. ]
-- Wait, we actually have that in Faerun? [ he's just ??? really??? ]