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[ THERE'S NO POINT IN DOING IT SILENTLY HE IS LITERALLY STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. ]
I did just, in a sense, die. You could stand to be slightly more polite to me for say, I don't know, twenty four hours?
I did just, in a sense, die. You could stand to be slightly more polite to me for say, I don't know, twenty four hours?
I am stressed.
[ and don't tell the rogue how to rogue!!! ]
[ and don't tell the rogue how to rogue!!! ]
My mistake, I've had a very relaxing few days comparatively, I'm sure! Practically as if I've been living at a spa.
Well, if we’re going with a personal comparatively? Yes, given that you didn’t have to go hunting for bloody Cazador.
[ he might be slightly on edge for the next 2 to 4 business days please hold ]
[ he might be slightly on edge for the next 2 to 4 business days please hold ]
[ well his ex did just send basically his father figure to deliver the message "kill yourself" which he then decided to do, so he would argue that perhaps it was, at worst, comparing a bad day at the office to a car accident in ye olde fantasy terms but
he still looks mildly shocked, and then extremely guilty. his hands start to fidget and he shuffles a foot, a little tangled up in Thoughts about that. ]
Right, I-- [ his mouth pulls to one side. ] I did fully intend to aide you with that. I'm sorry to have left before I could. I had a spell I was working on, and of course I wasn't there yet. Seems silly, really. The kind of thing I could cast without a thought only but a few years ago, but seems perhaps much farther away now [ realizing he's rambling ] but, ah. A large, burning column of light that burns like the sun. Sounds helpful, dealing with a vampiric lord, no? Aha.
he still looks mildly shocked, and then extremely guilty. his hands start to fidget and he shuffles a foot, a little tangled up in Thoughts about that. ]
Right, I-- [ his mouth pulls to one side. ] I did fully intend to aide you with that. I'm sorry to have left before I could. I had a spell I was working on, and of course I wasn't there yet. Seems silly, really. The kind of thing I could cast without a thought only but a few years ago, but seems perhaps much farther away now [ realizing he's rambling ] but, ah. A large, burning column of light that burns like the sun. Sounds helpful, dealing with a vampiric lord, no? Aha.
[ one of the entry requirements for “an origin character in Baldur’s Gate 3” was “aggressive fucked up backstory that bleeds into the main plot” and i stand by that.
he waves a hand. ]
I imagine light would’ve been rather effective, yes. They all seemed to hate Shadowheart’s glowy little mace more than enough.
A knife did the trick though. Who’d have thought.
he waves a hand. ]
I imagine light would’ve been rather effective, yes. They all seemed to hate Shadowheart’s glowy little mace more than enough.
A knife did the trick though. Who’d have thought.
Oh, excellent news-- [ he seems genuinely glad that cazador is dead????? hooray? good? ] ... Right? Good?
… I don’t know. I’m not sure I’ve really had the time to think about it.
[ sometimes you find freedom and then are immediately trapped somewhere else and that’s lovely. that’s just lovely. processing time? we don’t know her. ]
Then again, I imagine [ he gestures. ] your situation must be strange as well, considering you’re not—
[ exploded. atomised. kaboomed. ]
[ sometimes you find freedom and then are immediately trapped somewhere else and that’s lovely. that’s just lovely. processing time? we don’t know her. ]
Then again, I imagine [ he gestures. ] your situation must be strange as well, considering you’re not—
[ exploded. atomised. kaboomed. ]
[ erupted. unmade. erased. ]
[ there a long pause, while he turns that over. yes, it's a little funny, isn't it? the parallel tracks they all seem to find themselves on.
he hates to think it, to acknowledge the beast of the thought hulking in the corner of the room, but there was a certain amount of hope for some sense of relief in death that hasn't come. maybe it's the same for astarion.
he could be right, perhaps it's a simple matter of time. ]
... It's strange, I admit. To fling yourself through the cage door after all that struggle against it and then to find yourself terrified of the open sky.
[ there a long pause, while he turns that over. yes, it's a little funny, isn't it? the parallel tracks they all seem to find themselves on.
he hates to think it, to acknowledge the beast of the thought hulking in the corner of the room, but there was a certain amount of hope for some sense of relief in death that hasn't come. maybe it's the same for astarion.
he could be right, perhaps it's a simple matter of time. ]
... It's strange, I admit. To fling yourself through the cage door after all that struggle against it and then to find yourself terrified of the open sky.
[ … he snorts. ]
I’ve been terrified of the open sky since I woke up on that beach. It just took me far too long to realise it.
[ and that’s maybe a little too vulnerable, a little too open for him even after everything. he can feel the defensive hackles rising like a cornered animal, and sucks a slow breath through his nose.
talking about yourself is as terrifying as stepping out into the world and realising there’s no longer something around your neck that you cannot control, holding you back. ]
Some people are much more talented at that sort of thing, I suppose.
I’ve been terrified of the open sky since I woke up on that beach. It just took me far too long to realise it.
[ and that’s maybe a little too vulnerable, a little too open for him even after everything. he can feel the defensive hackles rising like a cornered animal, and sucks a slow breath through his nose.
talking about yourself is as terrifying as stepping out into the world and realising there’s no longer something around your neck that you cannot control, holding you back. ]
Some people are much more talented at that sort of thing, I suppose.
[ he doesn't exactly have the same coping mechanism when it comes to this sort of thing - whenever gale has been offered a chance to open the book on his vulnerabilities, the problem is almost entirely the opposite. entirely too messy and too much at once.
but there's a look of almost appreciation that astarion has said something like that in front of him. it's nice to hear that kind of thing from him. he'll give a matching huff of a laugh, making a gesture as if he's brushing off that second part. ]
Don't take this the wrong way ... [ that means whatever is coming is a compliment: ] but I don't think you give yourself nearly enough credit, Astarion. You've proven yourself over and over in the most trying of circumstances. It's something to be proud of.
but there's a look of almost appreciation that astarion has said something like that in front of him. it's nice to hear that kind of thing from him. he'll give a matching huff of a laugh, making a gesture as if he's brushing off that second part. ]
Don't take this the wrong way ... [ that means whatever is coming is a compliment: ] but I don't think you give yourself nearly enough credit, Astarion. You've proven yourself over and over in the most trying of circumstances. It's something to be proud of.
Edited 2024-06-10 14:03 (UTC)
[ he immediately bursts into flames and dies weekend 0. bye. ]
…
Frankly, I’m still not sure if I made the right choice back in Cazador’s mansion. I wouldn’t go praising me for things I’m not sure I didn’t make a huge mistake over.
…
Frankly, I’m still not sure if I made the right choice back in Cazador’s mansion. I wouldn’t go praising me for things I’m not sure I didn’t make a huge mistake over.
[ well i know it's hateful to say gale approves either way. for real. he thinks ascended astarion is kind of cool and hot, actually. ]
What's done is done, at this point. I'm sure whichever choice you made was praiseworthy.
What's done is done, at this point. I'm sure whichever choice you made was praiseworthy.
[ gale's taste is just "power". ]
I guess I'll find out, eventually. Presuming we find a way out of this place.
I guess I'll find out, eventually. Presuming we find a way out of this place.
[ hello astarion. how's it going in our new digs.
as he approaches he scratches at the side of his face briefly with a hand - just. gently trying to divert from where it says `a meaningless death` plastered along the side of his neck. it runs along the mark there, starting at his chest.]
At least it has a roof! We really do have to give it credit for that.
as he approaches he scratches at the side of his face briefly with a hand - just. gently trying to divert from where it says `a meaningless death` plastered along the side of his neck. it runs along the mark there, starting at his chest.]
At least it has a roof! We really do have to give it credit for that.
[ stares at the new tattoo for a moment before looking a way. if his arms are crossed to try and maximise the amount of time no one can see what's written on his skin, then that's between him and the words printed there. ]
There's a house with a bathroom we could have been sleeping in.
[ he hates it here. ]
There's a house with a bathroom we could have been sleeping in.
[ he hates it here. ]
[ there's a rather long moment of silence. im so, so so so so sorry. but he has to ask. curiosity has won this day. ]
... Do you ... require a lavatory?
... Do you ... require a lavatory?
[ one day he will throttle gale and no jury alive will convict him. ]
No. I require a bloody bath.
No. I require a bloody bath.
[ got caught up in the euphoria of burning questions about vampiric biology and forgot stinky existed ]
Ah! Of course. Well, I imagine they could let you in if you asked politely, I'm quite sure it's in everyone's best interest that we maintain the highest standard of hygiene possible.
Ah! Of course. Well, I imagine they could let you in if you asked politely, I'm quite sure it's in everyone's best interest that we maintain the highest standard of hygiene possible.
[ yes gale he can use his anatomy just fine thank you. ]
Naturally. We wouldn’t want the cultists to find us purely because we all stink.
Naturally. We wouldn’t want the cultists to find us purely because we all stink.
[ its just a very liquid diet is all. ]
If you are dire straights, there are basins by the barn. It can't be worse than the facilities at the Last Light, fortunately?
If you are dire straights, there are basins by the barn. It can't be worse than the facilities at the Last Light, fortunately?
[ not the last light ]
It isn’t all dissimilar, is it? Crappy little village where we all get to sit like fish in a barrel waiting for something to happen. Only difference being we can’t actually go outside and do anything about that.
It isn’t all dissimilar, is it? Crappy little village where we all get to sit like fish in a barrel waiting for something to happen. Only difference being we can’t actually go outside and do anything about that.
No, certainly no convenient Cleric of Selûne to aide us this time. I suppose it would be strange if it happened twice.
[ two nickels, etc. ]
What do you think of this chance to find your match, so speak?
[ two nickels, etc. ]
What do you think of this chance to find your match, so speak?
It'd be a pretty huge indicator of terrible luck if it did.
[ two of them. ]
... I'm not sure. On the surface it doesn't seem worth it. As nice as the power would be, the cultists didn't seem able to say with complete clarity that a power boost would be included.
The wish could be something that happens instantaneously, apparently, but what good is a wish if your "match" immediately gets themselves and you killed before you can enjoy it.
[ he's genuinely kinda put out by this. all this potential power, but the consequence of it is so glaring and uncontrollable it's making the chance at power seem far less appealing ]
[ two of them. ]
... I'm not sure. On the surface it doesn't seem worth it. As nice as the power would be, the cultists didn't seem able to say with complete clarity that a power boost would be included.
The wish could be something that happens instantaneously, apparently, but what good is a wish if your "match" immediately gets themselves and you killed before you can enjoy it.
[ he's genuinely kinda put out by this. all this potential power, but the consequence of it is so glaring and uncontrollable it's making the chance at power seem far less appealing ]
Yes, but--
[ he pauses, thinking. a long moment. ]
Did they tell you more details of this wish?
[ he pauses, thinking. a long moment. ]
Did they tell you more details of this wish?
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