In regards to your self-revival, or something else?
[ Pretty starkly in contrast to Daan's, which are subtle and quiet. There's a general sense or disapproval on the thought of Ascension, but he just doesn't say it out loud. ]
[ He sees. His fretful thoughts are out in the open. ]
I understand it's unreasonable to apply my experiences to yours... but...
[ He swallows and mulls over it a moment. ]
I don't know if it was really them, it couldn't have. My father-in-law and my wife. I saw their corpses, did their examinations myself in the Rondon estate. On a ritual circle to a god I haven't yet figured out who.
But I saw... monsters... with their faces, in Prehevil. [ It's easier to call them monsters. ] It doesn't make sense, but I still think about it.
[ his thoughts flit around a bit - necromancy, rituals, gods - like the feeling of flipping through the pages of a book, pulling references and remembrances of readings quickly from a thousand readings and lectures. ]
Necromancy can certainly lead to some ill-advised places, and I imagine seeing the results of it upon a loved one ... I can only imagine. I'm quite sorry.
Another difference of definition, then. It certainly can be that way, nothing but a puppet vessel, but in some cases-- Well, you have met Laudna and Astarion yourself.
[ but ... the second question. ]
Ah. The elevation of a mortal self to godhood. At least in this particular definition.
[ Oh. Vampirism is considered a form of undead in some iterations, isn't it... Nevermind. ]
There are two gods rumoured to have come from human origin, where I'm from. Alll-mer, and the God of Fear and Hunger. [ Something something, title drop... ] Perhaps more benevolent than your typical Old God in a certain sense, but gods nonetheless, with the departed mentality that often comes with them.
Do you think you'll still be yourself if you did?
[ Mostly he's... thinking of Karlach and Astarion. ]
[ the thoughts are. a really long wave of Vampirism facts. sorry. I will simply say gale knows a lot of vampire facts and is shaking to share them but he will not in this moment because they are talking about something else important. ]
Fear and Hunger. Those most two base emotions. Quite the title for a god, though perhaps I can understand the relation to each other.
I ... suppose that is the question, isn't it? Can a mortal heart be still held within the soul of the divine? Mystra herself was in some sense a mortal once. All of the Dead Three were once mortals, who arose to divinity. But all of them lack a certain mortal perspective now, though it's hard to say if it is intentionally discarded or not.
[ Vaguely absorbs vampirism facts in the background. He's a pretty good auditory learner. ]
I believe she's considered a god of progress and growth of some manner... Marina left me her Skin Bible. I'm sure there's more about what Fear and Hunger represents in it.
There's probably a line drawn between mortal and god for a reason, isn't there? You could be the most accomplished occultist with the spells of every god affinity under your belt, and yet you still wouldn't be considered one until you meet those particular requirements.
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[ Pretty starkly in contrast to Daan's, which are subtle and quiet. There's a general sense or disapproval on the thought of Ascension, but he just doesn't say it out loud. ]
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Though ... that was merely hypothetical. But is it not worth it to explore every potential avenue?
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[ They came back wrong. I don't know what to believe in anymore. Did they really come back? Was it just the place fucking with me... I don't know... ]
But I can't tell you what to do or say, I'm not familiar with how your world works...
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... I will be getting rid of the Orb, if it brings you any consolation. No coming back wrong or otherwise. Simply continuing.
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[ He sees. His fretful thoughts are out in the open. ]
I understand it's unreasonable to apply my experiences to yours... but...
[ He swallows and mulls over it a moment. ]
I don't know if it was really them, it couldn't have. My father-in-law and my wife. I saw their corpses, did their examinations myself in the Rondon estate. On a ritual circle to a god I haven't yet figured out who.
But I saw... monsters... with their faces, in Prehevil. [ It's easier to call them monsters. ] It doesn't make sense, but I still think about it.
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[ his thoughts flit around a bit - necromancy, rituals, gods - like the feeling of flipping through the pages of a book, pulling references and remembrances of readings quickly from a thousand readings and lectures. ]
Necromancy can certainly lead to some ill-advised places, and I imagine seeing the results of it upon a loved one ... I can only imagine. I'm quite sorry.
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[ They recognised me. ]
...What all does "Ascension" involve?
[ He doesn't want to think about them, not right now. Probably not ever if he can help it. ]
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[ but ... the second question. ]
Ah. The elevation of a mortal self to godhood. At least in this particular definition.
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[ Oh. Vampirism is considered a form of undead in some iterations, isn't it... Nevermind. ]
There are two gods rumoured to have come from human origin, where I'm from. Alll-mer, and the God of Fear and Hunger. [ Something something, title drop... ] Perhaps more benevolent than your typical Old God in a certain sense, but gods nonetheless, with the departed mentality that often comes with them.
Do you think you'll still be yourself if you did?
[ Mostly he's... thinking of Karlach and Astarion. ]
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Fear and Hunger. Those most two base emotions. Quite the title for a god, though perhaps I can understand the relation to each other.
I ... suppose that is the question, isn't it? Can a mortal heart be still held within the soul of the divine? Mystra herself was in some sense a mortal once. All of the Dead Three were once mortals, who arose to divinity. But all of them lack a certain mortal perspective now, though it's hard to say if it is intentionally discarded or not.
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I believe she's considered a god of progress and growth of some manner... Marina left me her Skin Bible. I'm sure there's more about what Fear and Hunger represents in it.
There's probably a line drawn between mortal and god for a reason, isn't there? You could be the most accomplished occultist with the spells of every god affinity under your belt, and yet you still wouldn't be considered one until you meet those particular requirements.